A Quest
understanding reconstructions in lifeArchive for 2003
2003: Geometric Poem
Life is never congruent
Things are always in an inequality
Never can we form an equation
There is always discrimination
That the even becomes an odd
The chord becomes a tangent
Why do we need to experience it?
People reason differently
But all are theorems never proven
Let our common denominators float
To form an equation
And relationship everlasting
2003: Bakit?
Bakit ganoon?
Gusto mong magsulat
Di mo magawa?
Anong pumipigil?
Bakit ganoon?
Gusto mong ilabas
Lahat ng nararamdaman mo
Ayaw lumabas?
Bakit ganoon?
Naghahanap ka ng makakausap
Kapag naman nandiyan na
Wala kang masabi?
Bakit? Bakit? Bakit?
Sinasabi mong okay ka
Ngunit hindi
Anong mangyayari?
2003: Clouds
The clouds are gray
In the rainy day
Even so
They still are beautiful
Staring at them makes
One’s heart at peace
Feeling the presence
Of the most Holy
Often people are too busy
To even notice
The splendor
Of the clouds
2003: Pathway
September 27
Here I am
Standing on this road
Will I continue to move forward?
The horizon is clear
I know where to go
But what lies beyond the horizon?
Things unseen from where I stand
Makes me hesitate to go on
I am afraid
I step a little forward,
And yes! I can see more
I take another, much more!
Now I decided to keep on walking
And never stop again
From this never-ending journey
I’ll go on forever
So I’ll see things
That can’t be seen a step away
I’ll continue walking no matter what
For if I halt,
My view would again be limited.
2003: Untitled VIII
July 5
Why is it
That when you need a friend
You can’t see one?
You’ll see them when you’re happy
And like a bubble they vanish
When you need their help.
You stumble down
They keep on walking
Until you’re lost in nothingness
You thought they’re friends
But then they’re not
And you are left alone
They’ll come back
When they’re in need
The question is
Accept them will you?
2003: The Unexplained
July 5
What is this that I’m feeling?
Clouds surround my heart
That gives the unexplained.
It gives me the desire to cry
But only a few drops
Fall down from my eyes
It won’t go away
Unless maybe go somewhere
Talk to somebody
I don’t know if it’ll work
I want it to perish
And be glad forever.
It bothers me a lot
That’s why I can’t focus
And do all what I’m tasked to accomplish
This drives me crazy
Can’t handle it any longer
I’m about to give up.
I’ll accept all the help you can offer
But please do hurry
For it might be too late.
2003: A Smile
July 4
A smile, they say
Symbolizes happiness.
True or false?
Many would think
It is a truth
And yes, often it is.
False said some
Who learned to wear a smile
In misleading people.
Indeed a smile
Deceive it does
In expressing emotions.
So a smile doesn’t mean
Happy you are
Covers it does
Anxiety and fear and
Anger and rage and
Depression, loneliness.
2003: Complete the Sentence
February 17
1. The best movie I’ve seen recently is Evelyn.
2. I’m very proud that I can maintain my grades.
3. A reward that I want to get is to have a complete and happy family.
4. A beautiful thing I once saw was a pair of shoes.
5. My favorite school subject is Mathematics.
6. One thing I do very well is writing.
7. My two favorite TV programs are Smallville and The Simpsons.
8. What seems mysterious to me is my behavior.
9. When I read for fun I like to read stories about magic (Harry Potter and W.I.T.C.H.), courtroom trials (A Time to Kill), and human behavior.
10. One of my better accomplishments has been being trusted by so many people.
11. If I had P500 I’d spend it on a book.
12. I wonder about what really happened in the past.
13. When I have free time I’d like to do my projects or read a book.
14. I know that I can overcome my fear.
15. I enjoy being in the choir with my friends.
16. Something I want to do more often is writing something.
17. If I could go anywhere, I would go to Venice or any part of Europe.
18. One of the things I like best about myself is being friendly.
19. A good thing my teacher could do for me is to extend project deadlines.
20. The question I want answered is why do you need to use that?
21. My favorite game is Table Tennis.
22. In schoolwork, my best talent is writing compositions.
23. Something I really want is a home where all the family members live in harmony.
24. What really makes me think is a behavior towards family members.
25. An important goal for me is to become a successful journalist someday.
26. I know a lot about Mathematics.
27. If I did better in school, I wish Mr. Mike would congratulate me.
28. If I could get the chance, I would try Scuba Diving.
29. Sometimes I worry about my emotions.
30. I feel satisfied when I can say what I want to say to a person.
31. I spend most of my money on food.
32. When I get older, I want to make a difference in the world.
33. Something I want to know more about is human behavior.
34. The thing I like to do with my friends is jamming as in one is playing the guitar and the rest of us singing with it.
35. I like it if my parents give me their appreciation.
2003: Personal Profile
February 10
“Understanding is the first step to acceptance, and only in acceptance that there is recovery.” This line from Harry Potter by Professor Albus Dumbledore helps me a lot. Whenever a new problem arises, I’ll just mention this line in my mind and I’ll feel better.
If you’ll look at Pandora’s boy, it is just like any ordinary box., but there is a mystery that surrounds it. Inside, there are several things that it hid. Pandora opened it because of curiosity. I can compare myself to Pandora’s box. I look like an ordinary box. An ordinary box that when you look at it, you’ll never know what’s inside. Like Pandora’s box, I hide so many things inside me, especially my emotions. When people look at my outside, it seems like that I have no problems. Sometimes just seriously reading, or laughing with friends. I’m even like a crazy girl laughing without anything funny. Though my outside is happy, my inside is always bleeding. I’m suffering with the facts of the events in my life.
I couldn’t find a specific person that I can compare myself to. whoever that person might be, she would be someone mysterious. A person who keeps her emotions just to herself and crying all alone. A loner person that even how much friends she have, she still prefer to keep her problems to herself. I’m always like that. I prefer to weep alone. Even though I have friends to tell my problems at home, since all my problems are problems of the family, I really like to think about it on my own, all alone.
Mysterious, that’s how my friends describe me. I haven’t known a single person who really know s me by heart. Not even my mom. I don’t think she really knows me, since I feel that I’m going far from her. my friends are saying that I’m like a book that haven’t opened personal pages. Sometimes, I feel that I’m just dragging myself with them. I believe that what’s giving me that feeling is the fear that when they read some personal events of my life, they will not accept me. I always have that fear inside me.
I feel that people think of me as a boring person. Very boring that they don’t want to talk to me. also, a serious person. I feel that they don’t like me because they think I’m so serious that their way of talking to me is different. A person with no sense of humor.
That fear may have come from me. a friend of mine once said, “When you fear something, that means that you don’t understand it.” That may have been the reason why I can’t get out of the chain that clasps my hands and feet together. That is why I keep on trying to understand so I will be able to accept it and I can recover.
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